Why is so hard to be true myself and everyone else around me?
I have to lie constantly to cover up for my "dark secret." It shouldn't be something to hide either. My friends don't hide that they like women. Why should I have to hide that the like men? It doesn't make sense to be looked down upon or be made fun of by others based on sexual preferences. Even if I did come out, I wouldn't go running around my college screaming "I'm gay!" I wouldn't tell anyone without them asking about me.
I wonder how long it will be until being gay is just another thing. No big deal is made about it and people don't look at you weird. Im not sure if it will happen in my lifetime but I hope it does. People should be treated equally and not be hated on because of what sex they like.
Living a lie is a hard thing to deal with. I think about it everyday what it would be like if people knew about me. "How would my family treat me" or "how would my friends treat me" are the two questions that keep me from coming out. I don't want to be the outsider in my family or friends.
It would be awesome if nothing changed at all and no one cared about it. But I don't know if that could happen...
1 week ago