Monday, March 17, 2014

'marry me' vid

first off, i want to say thank you to everyone who commented on my last post - i see every comment and really appreciate all the love i got.

secondly, i saw this video on madmanMD's blog and thought it was awesome. it's weird though because i can't even relate. i've been living in a shell far too long (due to my school being in the middle of nowhere) and haven't experienced these types of emotions yet. i want to and hope to - so possibly moving across country to live in an actual city, it might happen...enjoy.

marry me from elvisdifazio on Vimeo.

Friday, February 21, 2014

i'm making BIG moves!

well...all my hours of playing soccer growing up has finally paid off. it has rewarded me with the opportunity to go to college and gain an education, which i have somewhat done (haha).

i will graduate in May with both an undergrad degree in financial planning and a masters in business administration - by June 1st, i will be working.

yesterday i received a job offer from a bank that i interviewed with just this past Tuesday and today o got the final acceptance letter with all the details. i got the location that i wanted out of the 6 available cities and its nowhere near where i am right now. in fact, its the complete opposite. on the west coast in near southern California!!

i'm so pumped and i can't wait to move out there. its gonna be a crazy end to my 5th year here at school.

it's somewhat bittersweet though because just yesterday when i called my mom to tell her, she was crying. not really tears of joy either - more of sadness and pain being that i wont be returning home like she planned. my two older siblings moved back home after graduation for a few months before starting their careers. my mom hoped the same for me. it hurt and i was way sad when i hung up the phone.

today, she is more relaxed and understands its something i want. i need a bigger location with a more west coast type of mind. she is most def gonna be visiting and is becoming more excited for me which feels good.

so yeah...thought i would share that tiny bit of information for the day. haha

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

i've got a gay family member.

in (somewhat) recent news, i found out that my cousin is a lesbian. the reason why i say somewhat is because i have always had a suspicion for a while. growing up she has always been more tom-boyish and she even gave the 'being a cop' thing a go. it is just up until recently that she literally has tweeted every emotion possible with one particular girl to favorite each tweet. simple detective duties - i went to the girls twitter and notice that her tweets were similar of those like my cousin who favorited her stuff.

this news wasn't publicized to my family either. it was through my aunt  (my moms sister and also sister to my aunt with the lesbian daughter who this post is about), who cemented the rumor...

this might get confusing:

but my mom called my aunt (mother of gay daughter) a few days ago to see how things were. she wanted to pick her brain about how she is feeling with the sort of new news that she learned about her daughter. its been almost 4 years since i told my mom (holy shit - i cant believe its been that long) so my mom is doing much-much better with the whole thing. she just wanted to help my aunt out a bit.

while on the phone, she pulled out my letter that i wrote to her explaining my situation. when reading it, she started crying on the phone and apparently so did my aunt. she paused at the last line and struggled for a few minutes to get it out. my mom is an emotional lady and i love her so much. i cant remember exactly what the last line read, and she even called me to tell me this and read the line to me and got chocked up. it was something along the lines of "i'm sorry for being like this but i hope you still love me." she couldn't believe i wrote that and felt so bad that i had those thoughts in my mind - that my parents wouldn't love me because of something so small.

at the time before coming out, it is how i felt and was so unsure of what might happen. my mom tells me all the time that she feels terrible for kids whose parents dont accept them. and personally, so do i. i couldnt imagine parents who wouldn't accept their kids over being gay.

anyways, in the end. more family of mine knows now and they are super cool with it. i fb'd messaged my cousin (the lesbian) and her brother about it saying that its cool they know and that its awesome that its out in the open now. my cousin the guy, goes to Mizzou so we talked about the Michael Sam thing as well. his frat is putting up a huge banner saying how they are supportive of him which is mad cool.

so yeah, i have a gay cousin now - it's pretty cool i guess. haha

and i really hope Michael Sam gets drafted cause that would be massive for acceptance.

Thursday, January 30, 2014

new blog to check out

someone is back to blogging that has been out of the game for a while. he was the initial reason why i started to blog actually. it was my freshman year of college i found his online story of dealing with being gay and playing soccer which i could relate to. he was nice enough to talk me and give me advice when i needed it.

this guy is named Greg - and honestly, i dont even remember his original blog name (sorry about that) but his blog is up and running. its about his journey traveling the world and living in many different countries with many different ideas. i'm sure it will be just as interesting as his first so check it out and show some love.

Peg Leg Greg

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Looking

first off - Happy belated Thanksgiving... Merry belated Christmas... and hope you all have a wonderful start to the New Year!!

my plans for New Years Eve is that we are going to the Uptown area of Dallas where are all the bars are located with my group of friends from high school with a pregame at the Ritz Carlton! one of my buddies moms hooked it up and booked a suite there for us which will be way sick.

i do have quite a bit that i havent informed yall as of lately but i'm doing extremely well. being out to (almost) all my friends back home has been a great experience. i even went to a gay bar with a couple of them and they all loved it. also, a friend of mine in law school here in Dallas introduced me to a guy in her study group which has been beneficial haha he is really cool, easy to talk to and even came out with my group of high school friends. just kind of sucks i leave to head back to school in less than a week... but i will try to update yall later about the details of everything else.

i wanted to show y'all these trailers of an upcoming HBO series - its about gay guys. i mean, i'll for sure watch it and see what its all about.

trailer #1:


trailer #2:

Friday, November 8, 2013

coming out of closets

sorry for all the videos i've posted lately but i feel like they are all so important and meaningful. here is another that is making its rounds across the internet. a teammate actually sent this to me which was pretty cool.



1) be authentic
2) be direct
3) be unapologetic

Thursday, October 24, 2013

this is cool.

check this wedding.

Brad & Luke: 5.11.13 from Collin Del Cuore on Vimeo.

also, i have a post that i've sort of written but not done and have been to lazy to write it all - its about me telling a teammate a week ago.

anyways, my mom and sis fly in tonight and are hanging with me the whole weekend which im pumped for. hope yall have a good weekend though.