Friday, February 21, 2014

i'm making BIG moves!

well...all my hours of playing soccer growing up has finally paid off. it has rewarded me with the opportunity to go to college and gain an education, which i have somewhat done (haha).

i will graduate in May with both an undergrad degree in financial planning and a masters in business administration - by June 1st, i will be working.

yesterday i received a job offer from a bank that i interviewed with just this past Tuesday and today o got the final acceptance letter with all the details. i got the location that i wanted out of the 6 available cities and its nowhere near where i am right now. in fact, its the complete opposite. on the west coast in near southern California!!

i'm so pumped and i can't wait to move out there. its gonna be a crazy end to my 5th year here at school.

it's somewhat bittersweet though because just yesterday when i called my mom to tell her, she was crying. not really tears of joy either - more of sadness and pain being that i wont be returning home like she planned. my two older siblings moved back home after graduation for a few months before starting their careers. my mom hoped the same for me. it hurt and i was way sad when i hung up the phone.

today, she is more relaxed and understands its something i want. i need a bigger location with a more west coast type of mind. she is most def gonna be visiting and is becoming more excited for me which feels good.

so yeah...thought i would share that tiny bit of information for the day. haha

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

i've got a gay family member.

in (somewhat) recent news, i found out that my cousin is a lesbian. the reason why i say somewhat is because i have always had a suspicion for a while. growing up she has always been more tom-boyish and she even gave the 'being a cop' thing a go. it is just up until recently that she literally has tweeted every emotion possible with one particular girl to favorite each tweet. simple detective duties - i went to the girls twitter and notice that her tweets were similar of those like my cousin who favorited her stuff.

this news wasn't publicized to my family either. it was through my aunt  (my moms sister and also sister to my aunt with the lesbian daughter who this post is about), who cemented the rumor...

this might get confusing:

but my mom called my aunt (mother of gay daughter) a few days ago to see how things were. she wanted to pick her brain about how she is feeling with the sort of new news that she learned about her daughter. its been almost 4 years since i told my mom (holy shit - i cant believe its been that long) so my mom is doing much-much better with the whole thing. she just wanted to help my aunt out a bit.

while on the phone, she pulled out my letter that i wrote to her explaining my situation. when reading it, she started crying on the phone and apparently so did my aunt. she paused at the last line and struggled for a few minutes to get it out. my mom is an emotional lady and i love her so much. i cant remember exactly what the last line read, and she even called me to tell me this and read the line to me and got chocked up. it was something along the lines of "i'm sorry for being like this but i hope you still love me." she couldn't believe i wrote that and felt so bad that i had those thoughts in my mind - that my parents wouldn't love me because of something so small.

at the time before coming out, it is how i felt and was so unsure of what might happen. my mom tells me all the time that she feels terrible for kids whose parents dont accept them. and personally, so do i. i couldnt imagine parents who wouldn't accept their kids over being gay.

anyways, in the end. more family of mine knows now and they are super cool with it. i fb'd messaged my cousin (the lesbian) and her brother about it saying that its cool they know and that its awesome that its out in the open now. my cousin the guy, goes to Mizzou so we talked about the Michael Sam thing as well. his frat is putting up a huge banner saying how they are supportive of him which is mad cool.

so yeah, i have a gay cousin now - it's pretty cool i guess. haha

and i really hope Michael Sam gets drafted cause that would be massive for acceptance.