Telling my teammates about my lil secret could possibly be the hardest things I have ever done. I have debated about it so many times especially recently but I dont think its gonna happen as long as Im on the team. I have debated to just tell my closest teammate who is also my roommate but it seems risky if it slipped out on accident or something.
This is another conversation that some of the guys on the team had that keeps me from telling them:
Today after training, me and five other guys on the team went to dinner at Zaxbys. It was my teammates birthday the other day so we went to celebrate kind of just so we didnt have to eat at the cafeteria. But while we were eating, something came up about gay kids. I dont know how or where it came from. But a teammate (also a roommate of mine now) was like "I could never have a gay child. It would not happen. I wouldnt allow it!" Then some other the guys agreed and said some other stuff about it. But he was like "if my child was gay, I would shoot him." Knowing the guy, he wouldn't shoot anyone. He is one of the nicest kids on the team and never gets mad, always shares his stuff, and lives in a positive kind of manner I guess. I mean it sucked hearing that but thats the stuff that keeps me from saying anything to them at all. Maybe there idea of a gay guy would change if I came out since I play soccer (not to be arrogant or big headed, but Im a big part of the team and they look up to me as a player and person) and Im just a normal chill kid who does the same shit they do except fuck girls. I just dont understand why people give a fuck about other peoples sexuality. Why the hell does it concern them? I dont know, it just pissed off...
But Im glad this blogging thing is here. This has helped so so much! Have talked to some great guys about this stuff and its really helped me. These are some new blogs and pretty sick dudes if you ask me: Not So Open & Obvious, I'm Me, and Average Gay Dude. Should check them out!
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