Updated! (new music and new genres. this is about as gay as i will get on this blog besides the idea of it all haha but had a complaint on music (Explorer Jack) so i thought i would give some fresh jams to yall. and for a disclaimer, i dont have any of these songs actually on my itunes...even though i do enjoy them haha)
So I tried writing a post tonight since I've been so fucking bored butttttt I couldnt even do that. Its like my brain doesnt know how to function properly when Im bored. My thoughts wont stay put when Im trying to write. I had started two posts before giving up on them and now this is my post in order to clear thoughts.
Talked to some blog buddies tonight and it was great. I love talking about random shit with someone who knows my secret. Its like a sense of openness. Even if we dont talk about gay things, them just knowing makes things feel better. Like earlier in the evening I was with my brothers fiance getting dinner. He's out of town so it was just me and her. We sat there for hours just talking after we were done. From what I wanted to do after school, to adopting kids, to family. It was just random talk and I felt at ease because she knows about me.
I dont know what it is when I talk to someone who knows Im gay, but it certainly is a different feeling than talking to someone who doesnt know.
Hope everything is well people!
6 years ago
Haha, yeah it's nice to talk to someone who knows you're gay
ReplyDeleteSocrkid: It's because you no longer have to pretend or put up walls, you can just be yourself. That's why it feels so comfortable.
ReplyDeleteHey nice blog...
ReplyDeleteHey bud you should email me sometime.
ReplyDeleteI think it is because you can actually relax.. You are on your guard when having conversations even though you don't know it. It causes stress and you have been living with it.
ReplyDeletelucky kid
ReplyDeleteHey, I know exactly what you mean. It doesn't matter what you talk about, but the conversation is better, more relaxed. What I like is that I can say what's on my mind, even the smart ass sarcastic bits, without having to filter.
ReplyDeleteJay
ya, its awesome just being able to talk and not have a guard up censoring what i have to say. thanks everyone for reading!
ReplyDeleteYou've definitly come a long way. Its awesome to see how much you have grown dude! Shoot me a text whenever bud, I'm always here if you need me
ReplyDeletethanks buddy! right back at you too
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