i didnt take a year off from being gay

i fuckin love my teammates. they all have been mad supportive and super chill about the whole gay thing. and each new teammate i tell, they take it in stride and dont care.

last night, we were chillin at a teammates apartment drinking and somewhat pre-gaming for the party we didnt end up going to. i was with 3 guys that new then a freshman that didnt know. by the end of the night i told him and of course, he didnt believe and i thought i was bullshitting until the we all convinced him it was true. he said he respected me and had no idea. though he said he thought it was weird that i tweeted the Robbie Rogers story and some other gay news that was big at the time.

towards the end of the night, we were having the typical conversations with the questions. honestly, i love these - the opportunity to educate people on the gay community and general topics regarding gay subjects is always fun to me. the main question that is always a hot button issue is: "is being gay a choice or are you born gay?" i respectively gave my philosophy on the topic and all the guys agreed and understood where i was coming from, except for one. its a kid from NJ on the team and he really is the most chill, easy going guy probably on my team and he even goes to gay clubs back home with his gay friends; but he thinks its a choice. when we were going back and forth debating our hands, the other guys sided with me and completely agreed on how attraction to a gender isn't a thing to where you choose. its a natural progression without conscientiously thinking about it. i explained to when i knew i was gay and for how long i've been closeted.

it was cool that one of my teammates felt sympathetic for me by not truly being myself until i first told someone my sophomore year. he couldnt grasp the idea of me not coming out until college and going through high school completely closeted. the funniest thing he said was "so were you gay freshman year though cause you didnt come out until sophomore year..." yes he was completely smashed cause they were drinking at the beach since 2 but we all just died laughing. he said he had so much respect for me and that he loved a lot. it was a cool thing though.

unrelated to this post:
-went to another gay meeting thing last week and it was actually a good one cause it was people sharing their coming out stories. it was kind of fucked up as well though cause the 4 people that shared, their parents didnt accept them and they all have had rough times coming out. one girl that shared, her parents found out by a picture on the internet and her parents went behind her back to apply for other colleges and one was Liberty University (aka Anti-gay University). so one day she got called by them explaining how she was accepted and it caught her off guard since she clearly didnt apply there. i felt pretty bad for them since my coming out has been pretty smooth. i was going to share and right when i was about to start, the group had to get out of the room cause their was a class that was about to start ...(it was my MBA business ethics class actually which seems pretty interesting so far)

-still single