Wednesday, February 22, 2012

i want to make a difference

Since being somewhat 'out' and reading so many coming out stories, it really has made me what to do more. Yeah, being openly out could have it negatives but I honestly feel the positives would out weight them. This is the thought that keeps me on the edge of telling people.

Just Sunday night, I told another person. Its the girl that has been helping me with some school work and also one that wanted to hook up with me a while back. I made it clear that it wasnt going to happen so my roommate took over the sex with her haha. (not sure I wrote about this, but she wanted to have the 3-some with me and my roomy) When I told her about me being gay, I explained that was the reason why the 3-some never happen and she was like "damn, so I never had a shot with you" It was pretty funny and she took it real well. She was happy for me and was so excited to be asking me all different types of questions. Some were awesome that had me and her dying laughing. This is the first girl at school that I've told and the next day at the library when studying, we both commented on this good looking guy that walked by. I also told her about EC (the kid I'm talking too for those who dont know), and she was super happy for me. She really wants to meet him too haha

But back to my main point...For anyone who reads this blog, its really just like an online journal to me but to others, I've realized people can relate to it and make connections with some of my stories/thoughts/feelings. I want to people to read it and make a connection with it. I want it to help someone even if its just one person. I know before I started mine, I read a bunch of blogs that I felt like were the exact thoughts and feelings that I had. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I really want to be out and be a good role model for the younger generations who struggle with themselves. It makes me sick to see what the government does when discussing bills about same-sex marriage and other issues within the gay community. Why the fuck should it be up to others if one couple can get married. Or if a certain group is discriminated against and nothing happens to those who do the damage. Is innocent kids killing themselves not enough evidence that something is wrong with this fucking country with dealing with these things. I know it took time for African-Americans to get freedom and rights but since that period, our culture has flourished. Not one bad thing has come from that. Why can't they relate those issues with the present day discrimination of gays. This shit is so fucking frustrating. It kills me cause realistically I can't do anything to change the minds of those who vote against gay bills. I honestly just want to help and show that being gay isn't a problem and you can live your life how you want to, and you should live your life how you want to!

Not sure if that made sense but its been a long 3 days this week already and when I get heated, its hard to write down how I feel... Well, hope everyone is having a great week!


  1. Got that feeling too about wanting to help somebody, like younger gay kids that still struggle with coming out and being gay. It's like I want to make my own struggle usefull by helping others who can learn from it.

    And you're so right with that comparison with the acceptation of black people. A majority of the people is always scared for giving others the same rights, because they think then they will lose something themselves. Nothing real but some kind of superiority because they are the 'normal' ones.

    So yes, your post did make sense for me!

    btw still curious about how you're doing with EC ;-)

  2. The interesting part is the black community from what I read are more homophobic than the white race. People don't view sexual orientation in the same way as race discrimination. In fact some people hate the fact that people use the two factors in conversation. Socrkid17, you have handled your coming out process with class. You had already had the respect of your friends and family and the transition was seamless considering. I think by writing your experience here you are giving many young gays a lot to think about and that is helping people out in my opinion. The more you make personal contact that will even add to that. "your just too nice a guy" ;-)

  3. Hey man,
    I gotta say that every single one of the blogs that I follow has done a lot to help me, yours included. I think it's great that you have that desire to help people, I can totally relate :-)

  4. Religion drives many people to deny rights to gays. The excuse you hear is God tells us to love you but hate the sin. Skin color is different. Also, religion teaches gays choose this lifestyle. They don't believe Gays are born this way.

  5. Socrkid: You already have made a difference by being a good example of what it's like to come out and be well received. By coming out to your family and friends you also are shaping larger public opinion because that's the best way to educate people that the negative stereotypes are not true. One thing you can do though it make sure you and your friends vote so that their voices are included and can influence politicians.

  6. Your blog has helped me deal with who I am and I'm not a young kid. Thanks!

  7. You already are making a difference. Not only to younger guys looking up to you but also to guys like me 10 to 15 years ahead of you: It makes me so happy to see how far things have come in such a short time. I also like checking in on your blog because I happen to be married to a former Division 1 athlete myself (and we're expecting a son!).

  8. Well done man, have added your story to my side-blog "Coming out stories" because I think these real-life expeirences are really what kids struggling can relate to. Good luck with the reast of your team. Dave

  9. I always love reading your blog and seeing the progress you've made. You're braver than I was! Good on you mate. I was in a similar position when I needed to come out, and after it was all over and everyone knew I felt so strongly that I needed to do my bit to help other people do the same.

    But even if you don't do anything specific, being yourself and being open about yourself is enough. The more people know (through a friend of a friend, a family member, whatever) of a happy, normal, open gay guy the more people understand that gay people are just people, and they'll stick up for us. It's only when something's a shadowy unknown hidden thing that people act against it.

  10. Ur blog is a great testimonial man. Ur def doing ur part. Ur voice is being heard.