Saturday, December 10, 2011

some new important stuff

So it’s been a while since my last post and there have some interesting things that have happened…

First off, I’m back home and I couldn’t be any happier. Being at school and isolated from civilization takes a toll on the body and mind. Finals week was a bit stressful but I got through it (barely) and I’m waiting to see my grades, which hopefully I did well on… This past semester has really been something. I would have never imagined the things I have done and the things I’ve talked so openly about with my friends. The conversations I’ve had with the people that know have been so sick. The guys on my team are so open about asking questions and don’t care what I say or have done. When I do stuff with a guy (very rarely), they want “every detail like they were a 5 year-old” (that’s what they say to me) haha so they want to know if I was bottom, top, where I shot, where we hooked up at, etc. Its so funny talking about hookups with them cause they love hearing the things and think its really cool stuff haha

Something else that is new… is that I bottomed for the first time. It was a solid first time and actually kind of enjoyed it. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be and would defiantly do it again in the right moment.

I have told two more people about the little secret of mine that is slowly becoming a secret anymore. I told a buddy of mine last weekend that used to play soccer at my school with me but dropped out and went to another college after our sophomore year. He lives 45 minutes from my school so he came back for the weekend and right before he was gonna head home, I told him. He was real chill by it and was really surprised. He had no idea I was gay. This kid is actually someone I think I mentioned before because he said he was a homophobe our freshman year and that he hates gay people. Luckily he has changed over the past couple of years because of the girl he dates is  a hairstylist so he said he has met a lot cool gay people from dating her. I thanked him for being so cool about it all in a text and he said “of course bro, wouldn’t think any differently about you it is what it is. But it was good seeing yo ass no homo ;) haha and you def need to come to Raleigh. Hopefully ill have my own place by next semester so you will have a place to crash” It seriously is awesome when I get responses like these! And the other person I told was a girl from back home. It happened over skype last week. She was with another a girl friend that already knew cause they both go to Alabama and I just kind of told her haha She freaked out and was so happy for me and was saying we should have a party for me and that when I go visit them at school, they will take me to a gay bar that they have been too haha

That’s I think all the relatively new important stuff. Im driving right now to go watch my best friend from back home play a college basketball game in Kansas which should be sick


  1. Socrkid: Wow! You are doing great, you could be the poster kid for coming out. You used to worry so much but now you can see a lot of that was just in your mind. It's awesome your S8 friends want to hear about your hookup details. Could you have ever imagined that?

    We want to hear more about this first time being on the receiving end.

  2. congrats on your continuing growth. I think what you have done will make your life so much happier in the long run. I am proud of you!! I hope you and your family have a Merry Christmas!

  3. Haha, 'were you shot', they really ask for that? Seems like a lot of fun when you're able to talk like that with your teammates.

    Wish you some good time at home :)

  4. That's so great that your teammates and friends are so accepting and supportive! You should write a post on your experience bottoming. Did it hurt? What was it like?

  5. hey socrkid, been off this thing for awhile but it's great to see how much progress you've made! Well done!

  6. Socrkid: Your little secret admirer has kind of been confirmed. Sounds like you made a deep impression on each other. Keep up the effort, the both of you would make a wonderful couple.