fear.

a cool video i found while youtube hopping. Big Sean is an artist I like to listen to and this just made me like him even more...if you're not a rap fan or never heard of him, check out the video still, its pretty deep...

i hate writing

i've been sitting (with the exceptions of bathroom breaks, getting food, and napping) in the same place since 11am trying to write a paper in which i still have nothing down yet. its a 10 page paper for my Employee Benefits class over the retirement system in the US and then comparing it to two other countries retirement systems. needless to say, this fucking blows and i cant even think of anything to write. its due Friday and i've had it now for 3 weeks but i've really only just now got time to start on it.

this class is one that isn't my favorite. one thing that really upsets me about this class is that some of the information that im learning and someday will be helping people with, doesn't even apply to me or my future. things such as spousal IRAs and other joint retirement plans with a spouse dont apply to gay people. in the class, a joke was even made about this situation and it got a pretty good laugh from the students. of course i just sat there pissed off on the inside. i was gonna blog about it when it happened but things have just been too busy.

in other news:
-its fucking awesome about the progression for gay-marriage. it gives me a sense of hope in the future for our country leaning to acceptance. it would be way sick if one day, all of the 50 state allowed gay-marriage.

-i'm no longer a college soccer player. my season ended in the first round of our conference tournament in an unfortunate series of events. we lost in penalty kicks 4-3. i took mine and made it but our keeper had to save their next shooter in order to give us one more shot but it didnt happen. ultimately, it was a disappointing season for me. an on-going hamstring plagued my senior year which sucked. i only ended up with 2 goals and 4 assists which isn't up to par for my standards.

-i have less than a month til christmas break and i get to go home and spend time with my fam. i cant fuckin wait for that. i miss them and just being home... my mom came up for our game and spent a couple days up here. we went to Flemings steakhouse (it was banginggg) for her early birthday dinner and we discussed gay issues and how she felt about everything. it was awesome and i absolutely love her. i'm not even ashamed to say im a 'momma's boy' haha

thats about it, hope everyone is doing good! i guess i should try to get back to the paper... (if anyone knows any good info about retirement systems in the US, Australia, or Denmark or Netherlands, leave a comment with some thoughts) hahaha

mad powerful.

i always check huffingtonpost to see what the latest gay news is and love reading articles like these... thought i would share:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/antony-merkel/an-open-letter-to-my-republican-voting-family_b_2096631.html?utm_hp_ref=gay-voices

its been 2 years!

yesterday was the 2 year anniversary of telling the first person (my roommate). its crazy to think its been so long and how much less stressful things have gotten. now im out to 10 teammates, my family of 5, 3 girls here on campus, and 9 friends from back home. i guess its not too many but its a lot more than what i had 2 years ago! haha

Hope everyone had a  good 'Coming Out' day! i told 2 teammates the day before and it went over good. honestly, i find the reactions to be the same and very positive. i feel like it brings me and the person much more closer than before which i like. so i guess what im trying to say is that if you are reading this and you havent told anyone, dont be afraid to. i know its a lot easier said than done but its worth the chance! the only bad reaction i had was from my sister in which she was fine with it but didnt want me to get shit for it at the same time. now, she is super chill with it. i find it fun to come out to people. their reactions of not believing me always cracks me. it takes some persuading for the person to believe it but its in good fun haha

also, thanks for the comments on the last question. that is pretty hot to think of Matt Bomer as a bottom lol its always so hard to tell positions for guys but i think its a lot hotter if the guy is versatile and switches with the partner. love is mutual and sex should be too!

Question #7

Back to the questions in which I haven’t done in a while… but this is one I would love to actually have hard facts on and know what the truth is (doubt I will ever get it though)

So the question is… with the gay couples in Hollywood, who do you think the top/bottom is in the relationship? Or are the couples versatile? And when im talking couples, I mean the likes of Anderson Cooper, Neil Patrick Harris, and Matt Bomer and whatever gay celebrities there are out there.  And do you think these guys have sex a lot? haha

For some reason, this question really intrigues me and I would love to know the truth for some reason. Maybe im weird for having this thought when I see those guys, but I am gay and I would love to know who takes it and who gives it haha I wonder if Cooper has sex a lot, I mean he is single (I think) and is a super good looking guy so im sure he gets plenty of offers haha And which is the most hung you think? haha

Whats yalls thoughts on this question?

senior season

My senior season really isn’t goin as planned. We’ve played 11 games and I’ve missed 5 of them due to a hamstring injury. Our record is pretty solid and have beaten some quality teams; teams that really should of smacked us. Yes, its awesome having a good record with good wins, but honestly, it doesn’t mean much to me being that I haven’t been able to contribute like I want to. Maybe im selfish and am probably a bad teammate for having these thoughts, but I hate sitting on the sideline during training and especially during games. It fuckin blows having to shag balls from behind the goal during shooting drills instead of me putting the ball into the back of the net during those drills. It sucks having to watch coach write another players name (who happens to be one of my roommates and only a sophomore) on the dry-erase board of starters before the game instead of seeing him write my name on the board. This fucking injury is killing me and its probably the worst watching my team suffer a loss.

I haven’t had much time to write as much as I would like to but then again, not much is new really. Im writing this on the bus back to school. We just lost our 3^rd game of the year to a team we should easily beat (I’ve sat out 2 of the 3 losses). Hopefully I’ll be back in about a week or two and be able to help my team like I want to.