summer coming to an end

Like I promised, here is my last post of the summer. Dont really know what to say because there isnt much to say. Nothing exciting has happened lately. Tomorrow (or today since its 2 am as Im writing this) I leave for Utah. Im leaving at 7 in the morning to go see one of my best friends at college. This is the friend I was going to come out to but never did. In case if you were wondering, Im not gonna come out to him while Im there. It would be bad if I told him and he didnt approve then Im stuck in Utah alone lol I dont think that would happen but not gonna risk it. From Utah, I fly back to Texas for a day then have to drive 20 hours back to school in North Carolina :( Its such a long, boring drive to school. I would much rather fly but I need a car at school.

Uhhh, there was something I wanted to post yesterday but I forgot! If I think about it, I will blog next time about it. Sorry for a short closing post for the summer but I will be back in about 2 weeks! IF I find alone time, I will try to blog. Until then, stay safe!!

This is a song that is on my main playlist on my iPod at the moment. Its different but Im feeling it

Inception

Saw Inception tonight annnnnnd....it was f'in crazy!! The whole movie was just a mind trip. I really enjoyed it and recommend it to everyone. Just make sure you pay attention the WHOLE movie!! Also there are some very good looking guys in it :)

I will post again tomorrow and that will be my last post of the summer probably :( I leave Wednesday to go see my friend at college then Im headin back to school unfortunately. Where the hell did the summer go?!! Seems like last week I just got home. Hanging with friends and working everyday just kills the time. I did have a good summer though so its all good. Hope everyone else is having a good summer and staying safe!

 Night Guys

Some facts...

During the time of my blog, I havent really discussed any inside facts about my everyday life. Sooooo I thought I would today.

Where to start??Hmmmm...


Well you all know I LOVE soccer! That is an obvious one. Ever since I could remember I have been kicking a ball. My parents said when I started walking I would just kick the ball around the house for hours then fall a sleep and get right back up and do it again. I was born into a soccer family so I think the passion for the game is in my blood. My dad grew up playing soccer and is still involved in the game. My mom is the odd one out cause she played tennis which isnt bad but it sure isnt soccer! My older and sister both play soccer and so does my little brother. Im obviously the best one (they might disagree) but its the truth :)

The most recent and where my heart is now is in my iPhone! lol Might sound dorky but Im into technology and ever since apple came out with it,  I have been dieing to get one. Buuuttt since Im f'in T-Mobile (which suckss!!) I have never been able to get one. The funny thing is that Im still T-Mobile though! My friend just got the iPhone 4 so he sold me his 3G and unlocked it for me. I know its the not the newest one but nonetheless its an iPhone and Im happy with it. I got it 2 days ago and I havent been able to set it down. (its in my lap at the moment since Im typing) but its the best phone ever. Even though I have the iPod touch its just not the real deal like the phone.

Other interesting fact: Im a beast at ping-pong! lol Might be trying out for the Olympic Table Tennis Team is soccer doesnt work out. Just kidding but it would be cool to do that. I think its insane how professional ping-pong players put so much spin on the ball and stand like 15 ft from the table and still smash the ball. We have a table in our game room where me and my older brother play. We keeps tabs on who is in the lead and Im currently winning by a couple games. My dad is slightly better than me but I can beat him occasionally. 

Another fact is that I am the PICKIEST eater. And this is the truth. Being an athlete you would think I eat my daily fruits and vegetables but I dont. I have a very small menu I choose from. I dont eat fruits, vegetables, seafood, mexican (besides plain tacos), asian, or really anything. My favorite food is fried chicken :) This is definitely not the best food for me but I gots to have it!! I dont know why Im like this or how I got like this because when I was a little kid, I ate everything. Its like a switch got flipped off. This does cause problems when we got eat with friends or when I go on soccer tournament trips. But for 19 years of my life, I have survived. And Im still healthy! lol I could be healthier but its just how my taste buds works.


I guess thats about it. It wasnt too many facts but just some things I havent mentioned. Hope everyone has been safe and continues to stay safe!

later dudes

an idol

So someone I look up to in the gay community is Gareth Thomas. He is a Welsh rugby player who is openly gay. He came out last December and is the only professional athlete out and still active. Rugby is not the most gay-friendly sports and Thomas seems to fit right in as being gay. I guess it helps being one of the greatest Welsh rugby players but I think there is some progress being made. 

I found out about Gareth Thomas a couple months back and thought it was so cool he was out and still playing. I read a couple things about him and what he has accomplished. Its amazing how much he has done in the sport of rugby. It would be awesome if an American athlete came out but Im not sure when that will happen. I think if a football player came out, it would change some attitudes or at least show the fans true attitudes towards a gay athlete.

Gareth Thomas had an interview for HBO Real Sports and I watched it today. It aired I think 2 weeks ago but finally found alone time to watch it. It was awesome! Makes me like him even more. Here is a clip of the interview below. I recommend other athletes watching it.

Ep. 159: Gareth Thomas

USA!!

So I'm sure you all know that the United States men's soccer team made it to the round of 16. They did it in dramatic fashion as well! It was such a good game to watch and Im so happy that they ended up winning. Now they play tomorrow against Ghana. Its going to be a good game for sure. I honestly dont know who will win. It better be USA though!!

Yesterday I took my lil bro to see The Karate Kid and it was freakin sick! I had no idea it was going to be as good as it was. Definitely better than the original in my opinion. I dont want to ruin the movie just in case yall see it, but the fight scenes are really intense. Had a really good message to the movie as well. It had two but kind of similar to me. "Life can knock you down but you can choose whether or not to get back up" and "Never say never." 


Thats about it for now. I apologize for my awful writing btw lol. I read other blogs and they are such well written and Im so jealous! Like I said previously, Im not of a writer :/ Anyways...Goooooooo USA!!!! :)

probs the longest post ever

Sooooooooooo...this is long overdue but I have just been so busy with summer! New job and friends and working out for soccer occupies 99% of my time. I have no idea where the other 1% goes. Time flies during the summer!!

Where to start?? Ummmmm. Well I was going to come out to my best friend but didnt :( This was about a week ago before he went back for summer school. We are basically attached at the him. His house is my second home so we are always together. And for some reason when I was thinking about telling him, we were always alone together! It was like a sign to tell him. Cause normally we are with our friends but during the day our other friends had work so we would just hang out. But I really thought I was going to go through with it. One night about 1 in the morning, I even sent him a text saying I had to tell him something. He didnt reply cause he was a sleep but the next day he didnt bring up the text until we were with his mom. I didnt think that would be the best time to come out to him so I was just like I will tell you later. I wish he would of asked again what it was but he didnt. I couldnt bring myself to tell him out of the blue. Its such a freakin hard thing to talk about. "Hey dude, I like guys." That would be would so awkward to say to my best friend!!!! I wish there was some other way to tell him. Anyways, he is back at school and Im still in the closet :/ Its whatever though because if I told him, I would feel obligated to tell our other good guy friend cause us three dont really keep secrets. (My case is a lil different though) So its all water under the bridge as of right now. Try not to think about it so I dont get worried about it.

Next subject: My job... So I got this job at an indoor sports facility place. Its pretty sweet really. Its has 12 basketball courts, an indoor soccer field, workout center, and batting cages. What I do is work an all day sports camp. We just play sports literally all day. From 8:30 am to about 5:30ish pm. We play dodge-ball, basketball, volleyball, soccer, wiffle ball, football, capture the flag, really any type of game. Its basically and all day recess for kids and really all day recess for me lol. I get paid to play sports with little kids. Its sooooo much fun. I love playing different sports and I love kids too so probably the best job for me. Im pretty good with kids and the kids love me. Probably the best counselor there I must say :) Its awesome playing soccer with them. I get carried away though sometimes. The kids tell me not to play so hard but I dont like losing lol. I dont like get physical and push kids, its just I mess with them by doing moves. Its funny watching them trying to get the ball too. Another thing about this camp is the silly bandz!!! If you havent heard of these things, you must be living under a rock. Every camper has them. (for people who dont know what they are; its just a rubberband thats is shaped as an object like an animal or car or shoe. anything really) But these bandz are serious business at my job. They trade them to each other and its funny how the deals go down. Like there are sparkly ones, normal ones, tie-dye, and glow in the dark. You cant trade a normal one for a glow in a the dark cause thats a dumb trade apparently to the kids. I have my own of course and I get in on these trades. I got made fun of for trading a 5 color spider for a yellow camel :( lol But its just funny. I absolutely love this job! Except a kid got sick and puked everywhere today :/

Now to some random things that have happened. Most recent was last night. I was accused of being a man-whore!!! WTF!! I have never had a girlfriend let alone sleep with a girl lol. But we were at our friends house just a group of like 7 of us drinking and stuff. Turned out to be one loud ass argument the whole night though. I was dieing laughing the whole time. The discussion was why should a gf&bf break up now or wait til the end of summer before they go to college. This whole thing turned the guys against the girls. I lead the guys (ironic) and some girl lead the girls lol. But I was just saying they would wait cause the guy would want to have sex during the summer. The girls completely disagreed but all the guys agreed with me. I was saying a guy would have more sex if he went out with a girl for a year rather then being single for a year. All they guys agreed but they girls didnt. I may be gay but I know how a guy thinks. The guys had my back as I argued cause they all agreed. It was funny cause when I was arguing, the girls were like "You know what, I always thought you (talking to me) would be the best boyfriend. But now I just see you as a man-whore." LOL!! I was cracking up inside. Im the nice guy I guess compared to my friends (might be cause im gay) but the them thinking I would be the best bf then sayin Im a man-whore and dont respect women. Never slept with one but apparently I am. Go figure lol.


Ummmmmm...What the hell is goin on with the World Cup?!! This thing is absolutely crazy. Teams that should win have lost and teams that should of lost have won. The biggest upset for me was the Spain game where they lost 1-0 in their opener. Im pulling for them cause I love the way they play. Such a classy style of soccer. Other game that almost killed me was the US game. Wanted to kill that ref lol Seems like a lot of people did. What an idiot! He doesnt even know what the call was to call the goal back. I was yelling so loud at the TV when it happened. Im for sure waking up in the morning to watch their final group match. If they win they are through. They should win. If they dont, they dont deserve to go to the next round. Other thoughts about the world cup...there are some good looking guys. Im loving the New Zealand and Australian teams :) I cant even pick the hottest guy out there cause there are so many.


Well, I know it was a lot and good job if you read it all!! It was a lot of pointless stuff that is filling my life right now.  Hopefully the US wins in the morning. Im gonna try to post more often. I have been thinking a lot about this whole gay thing but just been bottling it up. Need to get back to blogging my emotions out. Gonna get to bed now so laterzzzz

Why is it so hard?

Why cant I just come out to say somebody? I think about it all the time and how bad I want too. I dont know the effects of what will happen but at this point, I'm getting anxious to know.

After reading Taylor's post, I want to tell my friend right now! If they aren't going to accept me now, why would they in a few months? This is how I feel about the situation, but there is still something holding me back. It sucks :(

Well I dont know, Im laying in bed thinking about it and I cant sleep. Congrats to Taylor and big ups to him for having the courage to come out. Hopefully when I tell my friend, it will have the same ending.

-On the upside, had our first game tonight:we won and I scored. We have to win tomorrow if we want to advance.