school is back in session

Back to normal school days :( Why cant I just come to school and play soccer? Things would be so much easier!!

So my classes are all pretty cool. Teachers arent too bad. Thinking this semester should be a good one! But got a lil situation in one of my classes. Could potentially be good or could just be nothing. In my micro-economics class there is this kid that sits right next to me. This kid I have seen around school and he is an international student on the tennis team. I always thought he was different and kind of cute. Like last year I would catch him staring or we would make eye contact for somewhat long distances. But he came in to class late and sat right next to me! And our teacher had like a presentation today so he turned off the lights so we could see the screen better. Anyways, I was leaning back in my chair and the kid did the same. Throughout the presentation, he just kept grabbing his dick and like adjusting and stuff. There were people all around us so normally I would think you would try to be discreet about it. Thats what I do at least. And for how much he was adjusting, there had to be something down there. I wouldnt of mind to take a look but he didnt ask haha jk ;) And during this he like moved his knee to where is was touching mine. I might be hoping these are signs but it just doesnt seem normal to do that stuff. Im not friends with him on facebook and Im debating whether to add him but I dont know. Any suggestions or ideas to what the kid might of been hinting at?

And this is a clip that was shown in the presentation. I thought it was awesome and hilarious. Had the whole class laughing so thought I would share!

the locker room

So being on the soccer team with all horny ass college guys, there is no short of conversation in the locker rooms. Something is always being said. From talking about fucking girls, to new underwear, to girlfriend issues, something is always the topic of discussion. And normally it isnt just between a couple of guys. Its the whole team. No one is shy about bringing up things in the locker room. Its like a temple to where it wont be talked about later on anywhere else. (Besides fucking girls). For example, getting new underwear. I think this is possibly the gayest thing besides showing each shaved pubes (dont ask me why this goes on but i dont partake in this). Anyways, they will model them and like look at themselves in the mirror and people will joke around just staring at a guy in underwear. I think its weird and it might just be me but I think that is very gay!

And the reason I wanted to talk about this stuff today was because in the showers this morning after training, the topic was having anal sex with a girl. They were saying how they want to try but women dont want too and stuff like that. If I came out, I know I would be the topic for all jokes. I also just feel weird talking about that stuff. Especially with a group of 20 guys who arent very affectionate towards gays. I cant even imagine that topic being discussed with the team and one gay guy. It just wouldnt go over so smoothly. Like during the talking of this stuff, I throw random stuff out there and normally just laugh at the stuff they say. Its really hilarious but I dont think it would be the same if I was out to them.

Probably me being paranoid again but its whatever. Just got to brush it off :/

back on the grind

So I have been out of the blog world for quite some time now. I have been reading posts but just havent had the time to actually make a post. I will try to recap the past couple weeks in order starting from the beginning:

4 weeks ago...

I was in Utah visiting my best friend at his school. It was so sick! Utah is such a nice place. The mountains, temperature, weather was abosolutely perfect!! Im jealous of my friend that he lives there. He goes to school about an hour an a half outside of Salt Lake. We went to Salt Lake a couple of times and visited the mormon temple downtown and that was pretty cool and did some shopping there. I was up there for about a week and a half. Just chilled and played a shit ton of Fifa lol. I smashed everyone in it. But we went out the first night to a party at a friend of his. I guess it wasnt much of a party but more of just chill kind of thing. Played some beer pong, smoked just chilled. It was cool. There were some guys there that he didnt know and one of the was gay. If he wasnt then he was very feminine and gay acting. Personally not a fan of that type. But during the night he came over and touched my friend and was talking to us then left. My friend turned to me and was like why the hell did that fag touch me. I just laughed and played it off saying he liked him lol. I mean this is the stuff that keeps me locked up inside. I know I shouldnt care what others think but thats a problem I have. Its whatever now but just pissed me off when it happened. The rest of the time there was awesome so I cant complain about that. Went on a hike, did some training, we long boarded soooo much. I never skateboarded or anything like that before. So I learned how to do that there and i love it now. At night we would go this parking garage there and skate down it from the top. Its so chill and relaxing. 

3 weeks ago...

Got back from Utah and had to pack since I was leaving for school in two days from the day I got back. I had to get back to school for preseason. But went out the last night I was there to my friends party. It was fun

2 weeks ago...

So on the way to school our car broke down. We (me and my sister) drive to North Carolina passing through Nashville cause my brothers gf lives there and we can stay there overnight to continue driving the next morning. But we get there and we meet up with my brother (he was there for something) and his gf and go to dinner. On the way back to my brothers gf's place, the transmission blows. My sister was driving and she couldnt accelerate anymore so we took it to the shop the next morning to get fixed. They called us later on in the day and to say it would take a week to fix! My sister had to be back a week before me but I wanted to get there to train and run and stuff. So this was a tuesday and my sis had to be at school the next day. My mom eventually bought her a plane ticket to fly to school so she would be there on time. I ended up staying in Nashville til Sunday just hanging out with my brother and his gf. It was fun. Didnt do much. Ran and played soccer with him. Went out to downtown Nashville one night. It was cool but Im not much a dancer so I just chilled really. It was kind of awkward as well cause it was me, my brother, his gf, and a friend of theirs who is 28 and I was partnered with her :/ lol we got to the club and she was dancing on me trying to get to dance but it was awkward dancing with her and im not much of a dancer. Like I have mixed feelings about the clubs. I think its wierd seeing like 40 year old guys trying to dance with 18 year old girls and fat not good looking girls dance with other girls. I know this isnt every club but there was this stuff happening at this place. Anyways, it was cool I guess and we ended up getting the car back and left on sunday. 

This week...

My mom made my brother drive with me up to school cause she doesnt trust me? She says Im the problem child and im the one she has to worry about. I just like to have fun annddd I got my first speeding ticket a month before I left to school so she didnt want me to get another one. So when I got here, I got right to training trying to get used to the humidity here. Its sucks here! I walk outside and I start sweating. In Dallas, its straight heat but here is a combo of that and humidity. Its awful. But we started preseason yesterday and it sucks so far lol. We had one of our fitness tests in the morning then a bunch of meetins, then our strength test in the afternoon then a training session at night. Today we had training this morning then more meetings, and another training session at 415!! So fucking hot!! and to start to the practice off, we had to do some fitness test that sucked so bad! but its whatever now cause I took a ice bath at 48 F and now Im just chillin and the legs are feeling great! Got to wake up and do our last fitness test though then have another practice at night. Its good to be back at school and playing soccer. Good to see all the guys on the team. And the freshman are all cool too so this year is gonna be a good one I think. One of my roommates hates gays though lol  I think its kind of funny how people dont like other based on sexual preferene. It doesnt make sense. How is what they are doing the bedroom or who they are interested effect them? Dont understand it. Its whatever though.

Feels good to post again and finally let yall know what I have been up to. Sorry about the sloppyness. Didnt reread it or edit. Just a straight flow of my thoughts

summer coming to an end

Like I promised, here is my last post of the summer. Dont really know what to say because there isnt much to say. Nothing exciting has happened lately. Tomorrow (or today since its 2 am as Im writing this) I leave for Utah. Im leaving at 7 in the morning to go see one of my best friends at college. This is the friend I was going to come out to but never did. In case if you were wondering, Im not gonna come out to him while Im there. It would be bad if I told him and he didnt approve then Im stuck in Utah alone lol I dont think that would happen but not gonna risk it. From Utah, I fly back to Texas for a day then have to drive 20 hours back to school in North Carolina :( Its such a long, boring drive to school. I would much rather fly but I need a car at school.

Uhhh, there was something I wanted to post yesterday but I forgot! If I think about it, I will blog next time about it. Sorry for a short closing post for the summer but I will be back in about 2 weeks! IF I find alone time, I will try to blog. Until then, stay safe!!

This is a song that is on my main playlist on my iPod at the moment. Its different but Im feeling it

Inception

Saw Inception tonight annnnnnd....it was f'in crazy!! The whole movie was just a mind trip. I really enjoyed it and recommend it to everyone. Just make sure you pay attention the WHOLE movie!! Also there are some very good looking guys in it :)

I will post again tomorrow and that will be my last post of the summer probably :( I leave Wednesday to go see my friend at college then Im headin back to school unfortunately. Where the hell did the summer go?!! Seems like last week I just got home. Hanging with friends and working everyday just kills the time. I did have a good summer though so its all good. Hope everyone else is having a good summer and staying safe!

 Night Guys

Some facts...

During the time of my blog, I havent really discussed any inside facts about my everyday life. Sooooo I thought I would today.

Where to start??Hmmmm...


Well you all know I LOVE soccer! That is an obvious one. Ever since I could remember I have been kicking a ball. My parents said when I started walking I would just kick the ball around the house for hours then fall a sleep and get right back up and do it again. I was born into a soccer family so I think the passion for the game is in my blood. My dad grew up playing soccer and is still involved in the game. My mom is the odd one out cause she played tennis which isnt bad but it sure isnt soccer! My older and sister both play soccer and so does my little brother. Im obviously the best one (they might disagree) but its the truth :)

The most recent and where my heart is now is in my iPhone! lol Might sound dorky but Im into technology and ever since apple came out with it,  I have been dieing to get one. Buuuttt since Im f'in T-Mobile (which suckss!!) I have never been able to get one. The funny thing is that Im still T-Mobile though! My friend just got the iPhone 4 so he sold me his 3G and unlocked it for me. I know its the not the newest one but nonetheless its an iPhone and Im happy with it. I got it 2 days ago and I havent been able to set it down. (its in my lap at the moment since Im typing) but its the best phone ever. Even though I have the iPod touch its just not the real deal like the phone.

Other interesting fact: Im a beast at ping-pong! lol Might be trying out for the Olympic Table Tennis Team is soccer doesnt work out. Just kidding but it would be cool to do that. I think its insane how professional ping-pong players put so much spin on the ball and stand like 15 ft from the table and still smash the ball. We have a table in our game room where me and my older brother play. We keeps tabs on who is in the lead and Im currently winning by a couple games. My dad is slightly better than me but I can beat him occasionally. 

Another fact is that I am the PICKIEST eater. And this is the truth. Being an athlete you would think I eat my daily fruits and vegetables but I dont. I have a very small menu I choose from. I dont eat fruits, vegetables, seafood, mexican (besides plain tacos), asian, or really anything. My favorite food is fried chicken :) This is definitely not the best food for me but I gots to have it!! I dont know why Im like this or how I got like this because when I was a little kid, I ate everything. Its like a switch got flipped off. This does cause problems when we got eat with friends or when I go on soccer tournament trips. But for 19 years of my life, I have survived. And Im still healthy! lol I could be healthier but its just how my taste buds works.


I guess thats about it. It wasnt too many facts but just some things I havent mentioned. Hope everyone has been safe and continues to stay safe!

later dudes

an idol

So someone I look up to in the gay community is Gareth Thomas. He is a Welsh rugby player who is openly gay. He came out last December and is the only professional athlete out and still active. Rugby is not the most gay-friendly sports and Thomas seems to fit right in as being gay. I guess it helps being one of the greatest Welsh rugby players but I think there is some progress being made. 

I found out about Gareth Thomas a couple months back and thought it was so cool he was out and still playing. I read a couple things about him and what he has accomplished. Its amazing how much he has done in the sport of rugby. It would be awesome if an American athlete came out but Im not sure when that will happen. I think if a football player came out, it would change some attitudes or at least show the fans true attitudes towards a gay athlete.

Gareth Thomas had an interview for HBO Real Sports and I watched it today. It aired I think 2 weeks ago but finally found alone time to watch it. It was awesome! Makes me like him even more. Here is a clip of the interview below. I recommend other athletes watching it.

Ep. 159: Gareth Thomas