its been 2 years!

yesterday was the 2 year anniversary of telling the first person (my roommate). its crazy to think its been so long and how much less stressful things have gotten. now im out to 10 teammates, my family of 5, 3 girls here on campus, and 9 friends from back home. i guess its not too many but its a lot more than what i had 2 years ago! haha

Hope everyone had a  good 'Coming Out' day! i told 2 teammates the day before and it went over good. honestly, i find the reactions to be the same and very positive. i feel like it brings me and the person much more closer than before which i like. so i guess what im trying to say is that if you are reading this and you havent told anyone, dont be afraid to. i know its a lot easier said than done but its worth the chance! the only bad reaction i had was from my sister in which she was fine with it but didnt want me to get shit for it at the same time. now, she is super chill with it. i find it fun to come out to people. their reactions of not believing me always cracks me. it takes some persuading for the person to believe it but its in good fun haha

also, thanks for the comments on the last question. that is pretty hot to think of Matt Bomer as a bottom lol its always so hard to tell positions for guys but i think its a lot hotter if the guy is versatile and switches with the partner. love is mutual and sex should be too!

Question #7

Back to the questions in which I haven’t done in a while… but this is one I would love to actually have hard facts on and know what the truth is (doubt I will ever get it though)

So the question is… with the gay couples in Hollywood, who do you think the top/bottom is in the relationship? Or are the couples versatile? And when im talking couples, I mean the likes of Anderson Cooper, Neil Patrick Harris, and Matt Bomer and whatever gay celebrities there are out there.  And do you think these guys have sex a lot? haha

For some reason, this question really intrigues me and I would love to know the truth for some reason. Maybe im weird for having this thought when I see those guys, but I am gay and I would love to know who takes it and who gives it haha I wonder if Cooper has sex a lot, I mean he is single (I think) and is a super good looking guy so im sure he gets plenty of offers haha And which is the most hung you think? haha

Whats yalls thoughts on this question?

senior season

My senior season really isn’t goin as planned. We’ve played 11 games and I’ve missed 5 of them due to a hamstring injury. Our record is pretty solid and have beaten some quality teams; teams that really should of smacked us. Yes, its awesome having a good record with good wins, but honestly, it doesn’t mean much to me being that I haven’t been able to contribute like I want to. Maybe im selfish and am probably a bad teammate for having these thoughts, but I hate sitting on the sideline during training and especially during games. It fuckin blows having to shag balls from behind the goal during shooting drills instead of me putting the ball into the back of the net during those drills. It sucks having to watch coach write another players name (who happens to be one of my roommates and only a sophomore) on the dry-erase board of starters before the game instead of seeing him write my name on the board. This fucking injury is killing me and its probably the worst watching my team suffer a loss.

I haven’t had much time to write as much as I would like to but then again, not much is new really. Im writing this on the bus back to school. We just lost our 3^rd game of the year to a team we should easily beat (I’ve sat out 2 of the 3 losses). Hopefully I’ll be back in about a week or two and be able to help my team like I want to.

SameLove

recap/update

So as of lately: both the summer and the internship are done, and now school and the season has started. The past month and a half has basically been a blur. I’ve been constantly busy with everything starting back up. Training 2 and sometimes 3 times a day really tires you out. On top of everything, our Internet in our apartment has been down for the past 4 weeks and it finally has been fixed today. Have only had Internet on my phone but didn’t feel like typing a long post on there.

To pick up where I left off, New York City is fuckin legit. I absolutely loved it there and want to go back already. The 3 and a half days I spent there were all way sick. Got to walk around the city during the day as well as at night. Spend some quality time with different friends and also had a lil fun with a guy haha That city really is in a class of its own. Theres something about it that I have fell in love with. I don’t know, you can just do your own thing and get lost in the city without having to worry about others. Its so diverse and different that no one cares what you do as long as your not in their way while they are walking lol It was way sick seeing gay couples openly holding hands/kissing in public. I haven’t seen that type of stuff in many places. One of the nights, my gay friend and me went to a gay area and that felt awesome to just be so relaxed about everything and not worry about being judged or whatever. After school, I have to find a way to find a job up there that will support me to live in the city cause that place is mad expensive.

The internship is over and kind of glad it is. Overall it was a decent learning experience but just wish I had an internship in a different city. Staying in Raleigh wasn’t ideal and I really hope I get a different internship this coming summer. The main thing I took from this past summer was that I now know I don’t want to work in Trust Support Services haha Working the back and doing daily operational stuff really isn’t my cup of tea. I want to be working directly with clients helping them face to face. I know out of school, I’ll have to put in my time and do bullshit work but I hope to be a Trust Officer which could lead to making some serious bank.

School is back up and running and im not to fond of it so far. The semester is gonna be pretty difficult. All my classes are for my major and im taking 2 grad classes as well. Im in this program where I get my undergrad/masters in 5 years so it combines my 4^th and 5^th year together. One plus of my classes this year is that I have a hot teacher! This guy is about late 20’s and graduated from my school. He played baseball here and now works at a bank but teaches this Tuesday night Investments class. Its chill and its 3 hours every Tuesday but him teaching it makes its bearable haha

Soccer is going well and we’ve played 3 games so far and haven’t lost one. Played a team that was in the top 20 and tied them which was solid. I haven’t scored yet but I can feel it coming pretty soon.

That’s about it, wanted to write a quick update on whats been going on as of the past month. Take it easy

forrest gump running on my mind

so instead of flying out to NY tonight, im back home, about to kick it and play FIFA. my fuckin flight got canceled haha they are having some really bad storms there right now causing power outages and stuff so they shut down the airport. it kind of sucks but things could be worse as always. just hope everyone is safe up there...

wanted to post these 2 songs since they are actually GAY related. the first is by Frank Ocean. he is a R&B artist and relatively new. i never listened to too much of his stuff before i heard the news that he came out but that was more because i just never gave the time to listen to his stuff then once i heard, it sparked an interest in me to check his stuff out. of course this was a pretty big shock to people being that he is a black R&B artist. its just not heard of really in that industry. he came out by writing on his tumblr. he also did this like a couple days before his first studio album was being released (which is called Channel Orange and its mad chill!) its been on repeat the past week since i downloaded it and one song actually is about a boy. its called Forrest Gump and it just talks about a football player he had a crush on. its simple and pretty repetitive lyrics but i like it. so here it is:



also, here is the coming out letter that he posted on his tumblr...

then the next song is from Macklemore. i dont really listen to ths stuff but a couple of my teammates do and every song i've heard has been pretty solid. i found this song on facebook because a friend posted it. pretty sick so take a listen:



well hope yall enjoy the songs and i'll be back to tell you about my NY adventures!

did some shoppin

since i didnt go to the beach this weekend which kind of sucked, i spoiled myself and did some major shopping. went to these outlets thats about an hour away from my place then after that, went to two other malls in the area. thought i would share what i purchased...

got me two pairs of Nike's from their outlet. they were $69 each which was a decent price i thought and since i got me a shoe fetish, i felt like i needed them haha

this was from Nike as well. pretty simple tee for $17. trying to support my country for the Olympics!

the new timepiece. an Adidas watch which i got from Fossil for $24

 

the two button downs (one short/one long sleeve) are both from J.Crew and only $15 each then the pocket tees are from J.Crew as well and were $13 each

    a simple graphic tee from H&M at the mall for $12

i didnt get this today but got it a couple weeks ago from Gap for $12. i wore it today though and had like 5 people say they really liked it. it was funny having so many people ask where i got it. class Bob Marley

and i didnt get this but i literally started laughing out loud when i saw this tee-shirt. it was at Gap and thought it was hilarious hahaha

i dont think i have ever spent so much money in one day. it was almost 3 days of work pay!! haha but good thing i got this internship and getting paid lol i also got me a pair of jeans from Banana Republic for $33.

i actually enojoy shopping and i guess its a gay trait of mine haha i like to look good and like to get fresh stuff at cheap prices. i make sure to get all my stuff on sale in order to save some money. if i paid full price for everything i bought today, it would of been over double of what i paid for it all.

thats about it i guess...well, i am going to New York this Wednesday to Sunday. im just going to visit and check the city out. i've never been and have always wanted to so i got 2 days off of work and bought a ticket and gonna be staying with some different friends while im there. i cant fuckin wait to explore and get lost in the city. its going to be so sick